Chei-sama

I've always had this really strong affinity for pirates and sailing and the sea. It's the perfect life in my mind, being free as the winds which send me across the world. Sure, it was dangerous, it was bloody and scandalous and I'd be a criminal, maybe I would never be rich or have my own ship, maybe I'd die of scurvy or have my tongue cut out and my limbs hacked off or maybe I'd become a captain just to lose it all in a mutiny. But I swear, there would be nothing like the feel off the heavens sobbing onto the deck as the waves of the sea smash into the hull and try to swallow your ship whole. There must be no feeling in the world that could compare to the heat of the sun on your back as you get saltwater and sweat in the rope burns on your calloused hands which have tied more riggings than bottles of watered down grog they've held. I dream and I dream but I know it'll never happen to me. I'll never own my beloved brigantine, I'll never have to run a man through with a rusty old cutlass, I'll never feel the wrath of a sea storm.

That's half the reason I decided to become an author, aside for my obsession with how beautiful and magical languages are. And don't get me started on how much I love language. Every novel I write isn't just a collection of words, it's literally the embodiment of my passions in life. Every pirate I've ever made, every adventure I've ever created, every god I've ever thought up, everything I write is a little bit of my dreams.

The Angels Take Manhattan....

I can't even......

I cried so much. So. Much.

My whole family cried too.

We all just sobbed uncontrollably.

And then. We thought it'd be okay.

It all looked like it was going to be okay.

But no.

No, it's no okay.

It's never okay.

Everything hurts.

I feel like such a noob without my premium membership. It's not making me happy. But I can't do anything about it, so we'll all just have to deal with this bland basic journal skin.

So, I haven't updated my dA journal since 24 June. That's exactly three months ago. I think I should really update it. So much has changed about me since then. I'll give you a brief run-down of what's new:

- I'm now a huge Whovian.
- Saw BBC's Sherlock, finally. Love love love it!
- OMG JOHNLOCK ANFKDSKLASNKLFS
- Matt Smith. UNF UNF UNF UNFFFFFF.
- I never came out.
- I reach the post limit on tumblr almost every day.
- I'm a lot more accepting of today's music.
- I like The Wanted.
- I have a suit.
- I'm dead certain I want to be a photographer.
- I plan to move to the UK when I graduate high school (or sooner if I can convince my mum to move us there!)

So, yeah. That's basically me in a nutshell. Still happy, still an optimist. Even though it gets so hard sometimes, all I really need is a nice cup of tea, a good nap, and some BBC to make me remember happiness.

Well, I have a good many photos I have to upload from today, so I'd best get too it. Adieu, sexy reader.